If you would have told that girl, at this time last year, that she would and could be happy again, she wouldn't have believed you. But that girl believes you now. Amazing what a year can do to heal your soul. I can't remember what he looks like anymore. Other than my dogs and chickens I left behind, there's nothing about my previous married life that I miss. I sure don't miss him. My life is so peaceful and quiet. It's almost dang perfect. And I've recently met a new fella who I've been dating and getting to know. He's sweet and kind and kisses me on the fore head when he hugs me. We go to diners and some times he slurps his coffee when he drinks it, which makes me laugh. I use to catch such hell for slurping my tea around someone in my past life. Now I look across the table and laugh...life sure is funny...imagine getting upset just because someone makes a slurping sound when they drink something hot. I'm so lucky to be sitting on the other side of that table, across from someone, who some times, slurps their coffee too.
I've been really buying up the vintage Christmas decorations when I've been finding it at auction for a good price lately. I'm a bit obsessed you might say. Not as bad as some but worse than others.
I've been adding all my new goodies to my old goodies! My goal is to once again craft some super awesome vintage Christmas wreaths this year! Making wreaths last year was the last fun thing I did in Jersey, cuz shortly after my crafty fun, the shit hit the fan...no shit will be hitting the fan this year, cuz this year, it's all about the crafty fun and not about someone else's fucked up drama!
And since I'm feeling nostalgic for my drama free Christmases past, how about some fun kitschy Christmas shots of yours truly from back in the day...what a young sassy lassy I be!
....in a little house named DeluxeVille surrounded by five fabulous cats and lots of her favorite things! I apologize in advance to all the little girls out there, no knight in shining armor in this fairy tale, just awesome little MaryDeluxe saving herself!
Don't ever feel bad for making a decision about your own life that upsets other people. You are not responsible for their happiness. You're responsible for your own happiness. Anyone who wants you to live in misery for their happiness should not be in your life to begin with.
If you don't like where you are, then change it....
...you are not a tree.
"If you don't make the time to work on creating the life you want, you're eventually going to be forced to spend a LOT of time dealing with a life you don't want."
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Strive to be happy.
I will not let my inner peace be disturbed my the confusions around me. I will be gentle and tolerant, while maintaining my right to my individuality. I will listen and appreciate, and not judge the source of what I hear.